when downs are ups.

So I just spent that last 15 minutes trying on old pairs of jeans and dresses I haven't worn in a year or so. If you've never tried to lose weight or never had to be concerned about your size this won't mean much but if you've ever had to chip away at a ball and chain that's haunted you your whole life then you can relate. I can't say I've ever been distraught or depressed about how I look. I have an "I do what I want" attitude (usually) and I've always been incredibly loved. But I joined Weight Watchers for a second stab at things after an 8-9 month stint 2ish years ago when I lost 30 pounds. I'll add that 30 pounds is a lot, whether people notice or compliment or care it's a lot of work and a lot of effort. Unfortunately, half of it came back but this coming week when I weigh-in I expect to surpass that mark and be at the lowest I've been in 7ish years. Again, if that nagging number doesn't change for you then the glee I'm experiencing right now could be lost. But holy crap, all my favorite jeans now fit. Not kind of fit, like if I stretch them out or don't dry them fit, but comfortably fit. And my Easter dress that's been worn only 1, FITS. I'm torn between elation and being teary-eyed.The weirdest part though is how easy the last 6 weeks have been! WW makes it freakishly easy and somehow, something in me clicked. Not just with how I want to eat and the food choices I make but some weird change permeated my entire self. Somewhere along the line I just...changed. I performed 2 weeks ago without ever playing for anyone or a lesson and I won't lie--it was good! And I have a $ budget that I'm actually following. Whatever has come over me I'm truly grateful for it. I'm especially grateful for the people who have noticed. I realize it might not be considered 'polite' to comment and those who see me everyday might not notice but there's nothing more encouraging than someone doing that once-over glance and saying hey, you look good. Let's hope God times those comments at the time I need them most....I'm sure he will. It seems he knows what he's doing.