Reconsidering 2008....

I know it's a bit early but since no one reads this and it's my blog anyway who reallly cares right? After much consideration and too much thought I've become increasingly aware of my many plights and battles in 2008. Much to my dismay, one Romanian pianist has transformed my way of thought and given me the much needed kick in the ass to reevaluate myself, my goals, my ambitions, my talents. She shook me out of a self-induced coma brought on by years of heartbreak. So here I am, no longer wandering, no longer searching but rather redistributing, reorganizing and getting to know all the right people again. Here, for my benefit, I create a compilation of proposed changes that I hope to not drastically but gradually improve me and my effect on everything I encounter.....

change: I cannot make people want to change even when it's in their best interest. I can only change myself and my approach to them.

time: It is not infinite, I do not have all the time in the world, every moment is valuable and it is mine, not yours, but mine to decide how I want to use it and make the most of it.

friends vs. soulmates: I have many, many friends, people with whom I can get coffee, lunch, or hang out with, but I have only 3 truly best friends from 3 different stages in my life who offer the kind of unconditional love and respect that I deserve.

piano: It is a privilege and a gift for which I am more thankful now than ever and by the way, as of now I'm good so just wait a year and see what I am. :)

food & drink: They no longer control my life, I control them.

solitude: This will be absolutely necessary for progress and sanity.

committment: I have never been good at this but that does not mean I won't learn to be. I follow through when others count on me, why not when I need myself to follow through?

I imagine there are hundred other things I could consider but I'm taking it slow...or is it slowly. Either way, my life just experienced its kickoff 2 weeks ago....so here we go with the most exciting game ever: life.