wayull.

Lessons learned tonight:

1) I can resurrect a piece on my own. And to satisfactory condition!

2) Once I've learned a piece well, I will always have it.

3) I need to embrace that awkward moment when people are clapping and looking at me.

*sigh*

Right now I'm bummed,
Right now I'm sad.
Tomorrow better?
That'd make me glad.
But at the rate
My life's been goin'
I hate to think
Of what I'm sowing.
Good or bad?
I cannot know.
So give me grace
And with me go
With every step
I dare to take
Hold me God
for my own sake.

ARGH!

I am trying to figure out a better way to handle my stress. I have yet to find one. Vodka, yelling and cleaning seem to help. Ha ha. Honestly, I don't understand how these situations arise. What did I do in the past to warrant this, who can answer such questions. Well....here I am asking for the strength and patience and sincerity and the love to be the better and bigger person. Again. For the millionth time.

randomness

An unexpected email today and a random blog yesterday and a favor given tomorrow all serve as reminders that I am indeed valuable. It's easy to let the enemy and society and the past tell us a different story but knowing a professor, a friend and an acquaintance can randomly pop into my life to assure me of how much I am worth, loved and not forgotten is a welcome event. So thank you God for blessing me with the most amazing friends, incredible professors, your silent warriors and the sheer awesomeness of my life.